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Cheryl Amos is the mother to talented musician and songwriter Louis Amos. Louis died in early 2022, at age 19. In our interview, Cheryl remembers Louis, his musical talents, and the gift that was his life.
The interview starts off with a heart-wrenching prayer from Cheryl’s ‘mother’s heart’ to her Louis:
To great spirit, and to Louis.
Please, allow me to express my love for you in an open and honest manner.
Allow me to speak the truth from my heart,
as your Mother,
who carried you.
You know my heart.
And so be it.
Amen
Louis had managed epilepsy. After Louis had the first jab, he suffered four seizures. This was far more frequent for the short timespan, than would have been in normal times for Louis. Of course, his epilepsy would hypothetically offer indifferent doctors and mainstream media reporters an easy excuse for glibly explaining away Louis’ vastly premature death.
When he had his second jab, he suffered a highly abnormal five seizures over a mere sixteen days, in what was a noticeable spike. The seizures were “becoming increasingly out of control”.
Cheryl maintains that she is not speaking on behalf of any other family members’ experiences, only her own.
“I cannot speak for them.” – she emphasises.
Cheryl considered that she and her son had a very close relationship. And within her own family, as with much of New Zealand, there has been a divide, in terms of strongly diverging perspectives on the government-enforced mandates of 2021.
“It’s been a hard journey, really”.
Liz Gunn questions whether Louis’ death could have been caused by his epilepsy. Cheryl is not dismissive of that possibility: “What I would like is for that to be looked at, and it’s not being looked at.”
Cheryl then explains that she has studied the information in the Pfizer trials data, which showed that people had suffered epileptic fits, including some who had never experienced a seizure prior to having the jab.
“I would like the coroner to look at that. I’m asking for that to be investigated.”
Cheryl speaks of the difficulties in making contact with the Coroner’s Office. When she first reached out seeking information on Louis’ death, she received no response. When she prompted them again, she received a cold indifference from them, offering her a rushed two weeks only, to assimilate the material she was given. When she then forwards the information, under this stressful deadline, Cheryl receives an automated email saying that the coroner is ‘out of office’. This caused unnecessary anxiety and stress for a woman whose pain at the loss of her young son was not in any way treated with a humane or even vaguely sympathetic ear by the coroner.
She did not want to look at the Autopsy Report. No mother would want to. Among the technical details listed, including enlarged lungs, the physical weight of his heart, and the toxicology reports, there was not one mention of the fact that Louis had been double jabbed.
“I’m happy to change my mind… but I do not want to ever witness a whole family grieve. I do not want to see grandchildren grieving their uncle, and brothers and sisters who loved him, grieving, and a father, who discovered his body.
I do not want to see the haunted look on that face again, and I don’t want any family to go through that – when it could be a simple ‘Oh, okay you’ve got epilepsy, we won’t give you the jab’ or ‘You’ve got heart problems’ or ‘You’re pregnant, maybe you shouldn’t have that vaccine’.
It’s not one size fits all”.
At this point in the interview, it became clear that there were unavoidable similarities between this case, and the case of young Liam, whose mother Julie we interviewed back in October 2022. Just like Cheryl, Julie has been unable to get any clarity from the Coroner’s Report and has felt utterly gaslit by her treatment at the hands of mainstream medical assessors.
Cheryl is resolved that she will persist, and acquire a paper trail for posterity, so that a future government or medical board may actively investigate Louis’ case.
She has, at times felt it to be “a special type of hell” to have experienced the abuse during her period of grieving. From all corners online, she has felt the effects of people attacking those speaking out against the government, attacked for supposedly “spreading misinformation”. She has had to bite her tongue more often than not in such situations, however hurtful these comments have felt.
Cheryl has been apprehensive about speaking but believes that she has a ‘moral obligation’ to tell her truth.
To her, it’s very logical. Louis’ condition worsened significantly after having both doses of Pfizer. She salutes Louis’ doctor for lodging an official CARM report, on New Zealand’s Medsafe site for adverse reactions to the vaccine.
“There are probably a couple of reasons I’m speaking: one, because if there are other mums or relatives out there who are too scared to speak, I want them to not feel alone.
The other reason I’m speaking is I don’t want to.
I want to grieve.
I want to be alone.
I want to grieve my son and I want to heal, but I have a moral obligation to speak and that is why I’m speaking because I have to, not because I want to.”
Freedom Village
Cheryl was inspired to attend Freedom Village on the grounds of Parliament in February 2022 after she lost her mum – whom she describes as “the funniest woman”- during the lockdowns of 2020, when so many of us spent our precious time pent up in worry and fear. She noticed the cracks starting to appear.
“It started to feel like Mass Hysteria.
They started turning on one another, and attacking one another – out of fear.”
The “final line” for Cheryl, was when she realised that the government-enforced mass hysteria would be taken to the children of New Zealand. The children represent the future. She knew peaceful yet resolute action on her part would make up for her resistance to the slow march. She reiterates that it should be everyone’s right to choose for themselves.
Cheryl attended the Freedom Village with her daughter, Zoe, and her grandson, Leo, staying in their little tent in a little corner of the Freedom Village fondly known as “Westside”.
It was full of love and songs and laughter. I’ve made friends for life in that village.
One evening, after another joyful and peaceful day with others communing in the village, Cheryl received a call from Louis’ loving father.
“Louis has died.”
Cheryl’s body let out a guttural, heart-rending cry.
Her grandson of sixteen stepped into the terrible void of grief that his grandmother and mother were suddenly facing. He turned into the protector of both. He became the guiding, protective male. Her freedom family also gathered around her, embraced her, grieved with her, and filled her shaking hands with warm cups of tea. Cheryl was told that when she let out her agonised scream, the Police stepped forward to advance, but backed off when they were told that it was the anguished cry of a mother who had just lost her son to the jab.
Mother’s Intuition
“I think that’s why I was fighting – because something in me was screaming, and I couldn’t stop it.”
Cheryl had initially told her children they were forbidden from taking the jab. When she saw the pressure on them from the government propaganda, she even bribed. She begged. She went on and on and on. She’s sure that Louis was a bit sick of her ‘going on’ after many months.
It was her intuition causing her to take such a strong stance in the months leading up to the mandated jab. She could not see the logic in the path that the government were choosing to take.
She describes it as the “Divine Feminine intuition”, resonating from her heart. And it deserves to be recognised and heard and treated with respect.
Innate Fear
Importantly, Cheryl discusses what she sees as the main driver behind so much fear in New Zealand after the politicians sparked such division.
“The fear of banishment – it’s the fear of what your brother thinks or what your best friend thinks – that’s the fear. That’s why it’s hard to speak out”.
She hopes her great-great-grandchildren will know that she overcame that innate fear and chose to speak out, no matter the consequences – that she stood up in a time of such horrific treatment of Kiwi citizens in our history.
Cheryl says at all times, Louis was – and is still – so loved.
“He was a musician. A gifted songwriter, with a pure voice. He released his first album at eight years old. He toured New Zealand when he was ten…
He was gentleman. He was growing taller by the day, and was broad…
A pure soul…
An old soul.”
Cheryl still remembers very strongly the day that Jacinda Ardern told the nation to not talk to our neighbours.
She thinks it’s time for every New Zealander to change that and speak now. “Speak to the people you interact with”, she suggests. “Speak to everyone you come across, every day. Ask them how they are coping, and how they have been affected”. Every family has something going on in this small yet resilient little country.
When questioned on how she has survived the nine months since her son’s death (time of the interview), Cheryl highlights the importance of honouring the grieving process. She has been seeing a grief counsellor and still feels the presence of Louis. She feels he’s free, and that feels he’s more alive than ever. “Louis lived a big life. Toured with a couple of bands, released a couple of albums, and made music”, she says, adding that the both of them even started their own secret band once.
Cheryl came here to ‘master life’ and Louis’ death is somehow helping her to do just that. She has survived the unthinkable and the un-survivable. There is a strange beauty in her breaking. She has surrendered to something bigger than herself. She has been forced to mother herself, to look after herself. That is the learning she holds close to her heart from Louis’ death. The positive from the negative.
When asked what her message to the Prime Minister is, she instead makes an appeal to “anyone in that Beehive that has a shred of conscience.”
“If there’s a shred of conscience anywhere and you’re feeling really uncomfortable, congratulations! You’re not a psychopath.”
We extend that message to those in the mainstream media.
In the closing stages, she offers her great-grandmother’s message to her descendants: she wishes for them to have the freedom of speech and the freedom of thought to be able to look back on this time as a crazy period of history and be able to realise that they had a courageous ancestor who stood up for their lineage.
“Don’t be afraid to speak your truth, even if the whole world is against you, because things make sense in hindsight sometimes.”
Finally, Liz Gunn shares her perspective on Cheryl’s message to her future kin:
“Well, I would just say to them,
You have the most extraordinary ancestor. A woman of great courage, who suffered enormously in ways that no mother ever wants to. Who has had to see her own child put in a grave.
And yet she still stood up against the abuse and against the cruelty – she stood up with love and forgiveness and dignity and courage. All the things you’ve offered us, Cheryl.
I’ve really valued talking to you so much and I know thousands and thousands of other Kiwis will, and I hope you all send a heart in your little messages in the thread comments, because this is a woman whose Louis will be dropping hearts around you for the rest of your life I suspect.”
